I could be decent yet...

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 18:43:09 GMT

hey it's been a while. highschool looks fun. Ryian and I broke up. I working on my homecoming dress and umm...i dont know what else is happening.

Oh and I have orange kool aid and you are just jealous/.

Stop stalling make a name for yourself...

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 01:37:10 GMT

So last night the concert was awesome. The Hush Sound played a few songs that I had never heard before. The Dresden Dolls kicked ass. Brian took off his shirt and played the drums and it was hot. Then Amanda called out Brenden and they sang 'Hit me baby one more time' and it was hilarious. Then they played a black sabbath song. It kicked ass. Then Panic! At the Disco played and it kicked major ass. They had like their name is Carnaval ligths.And a lit up windmill and trees. They had a white piano it was so cool. Also they had three circus performers. It was so cool. Then the guitarist like did his makeup awesome. Though I didnt have my camera on me so I didnt get any pics. But yeah um he came into the pit so people could pet him and I like was on the bar so I reached out two feet and I petted him. He had soft hands. yeah it was sweet.

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 02:21:36 GMT

So yeah i called and they havent responded yet. But i am waiting. When and if they say yes im going to ask my mom. ASAP. I would only be gone for a few months and Ive never been to California.

Hate me today...Hate me tomorrow

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 02:11:05 GMT

So yeah things still kinda suck but Im breathing. Yeah for the fourth i was up north. watch a parade, had a guy whistle at me, learned some new magic tricks and came home. My brother and mother pissed me off. I really do wish that I could go to California. I really wish my mom would let me. But I can't leave everyone behind. I can't leave me behind. This is where I have been for almost fourteen years. But then it would let me get away. Stop wanting Steven back and stop feeling bad. It seems that either way I'm fucked because really. I don't know. I'm going to ask my mom when she is in a good mood. Hoping that of course she'll say yes knowing she wont. My aunt and uncle would take me in. I know they would. Ill be back Im going to go look for their number. Talk to you later. Love you if you are acually reading this whether or not you love me back. Night guys.

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 16:58:47 GMT

So lets see. Two days ago my dad found a baby robin that had been pushed out of the nest early and couldn't fly. We fed it and took care of it. Kept it warm. I named him Hizzlefits. Last night at about 10:55pm Hizzlefits and I sat there. Keeping each other company when he took his last breath and sighed and i sat there petting him and talking to him. He will be burried in the flower garden. Yeah It's uber depressing but Ill get over it.

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 02:31:36 GMT

Yeah so right now im being sucked into this black hole called reality. It really sucks and i dont know what to do anymore. my feelings are mixed. I dont know who i am and i am like uber depressed but my parents wouldnt care even if i told them this. What ever. In other news metro beach was today. It wasnt as fun as i thought it would be but whatever. Curtis showed up as i was leaving so i didnt even get a fucking hug. no vision. nothing. sean was uber flirting with me again. and i feel bad cause i dont like him like that. but yeah. Then others. and i feel like dying cause i should of never broken up with steve. i didnt think i would regret it this much or want him back but im basically fucked cause he has katherine and i have ryian. YEah he moved on but im still having trouble. It depressed me today. I wanted to break down in his fucking arms. But im not welcome there. it isnt my place. Then i found out that ashley thinks she is the shit which my friends is not the case. So yeah. Someone saved me if you will and ~~take away~~ supply all these pills. whell i have to get some sleep. year book signing tomorrow. loves you guys. night night

Wed, 03 May 2006 01:53:31 GMT

So why doesn't everyone just outcast me? I dont see why not I mean I was just an outcast two years ago. I might even be one still and not know. But you know what dont fucking make me seem like the bad guy hear...I did nothing wrong.

Yeah fucking right.."I'm behind you 100% on what ever you do 'blah blah'" If you are so smart you would know to treat your friends with respect. You always put me down and honestly Im sick of it. THis is why I want ot move. A new start. WAY BETTER FRIENDS. I mean come on. Then you treat me liek shit. My exboyfriend is acting like a jerk and no...Im not leaving the lunchtable. They aren't just HIS friends..they are mine too. You do this everytime you get a boyfriend and I didn't want to the same so I promised you a guy would never come between u and I and I meant whether we were dating or not.

Yeah so basically

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 04:12:13 GMT

It's been a while. For one the other day I almost passes out in track. Then on Friday I broke up with Steve. Now before you comment what a bitch I am read the following.

Reasons...
I don't feel the way I used to
I was unhappy
I felt held down
My creativity and my personality was shot down
I want to explore other options..Im only thirteen

Okay yes it was hard. The only reason I put it off is because I didnt want to hurt him. but it had to be done and he would get hurt. So now there are viscious rumors about how Im a whore. How I lie and how Im untrustworthy and how Im a bitch. Yeah Steve I love you too. Anyways I guess I thought if I got satisfied that I would fall in love with him again but then he threatened out friendship by saying now or never so I said never and walked away. I did indeed value our friendship. But I guess if he wants to be an ass we dont have a friendship. I'm over him. Im sure he'll find another girl. And Im sure Ill have no problem finding another guy. Heart.

IN other news..Angelas party kicked ass and your just jelous cause you couldn't go.

Back

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 01:51:54 GMT

We are back from Tennesee a day early. I was home sick and I missed my mom. My family is alot cooler then a year ago. I acually like them. Loll. Anyways, I got home and my mom let Eric have Rex which is a Red Tagoo. He is the laziest lizard thing I have ever seen. Anyways, I got home and Mindy and I started talking about fortune telling and tarot cards and runes. I did like the simplest card reading for her and she said I did pretty good for being only thirteen and gave me some good tips for doing others readings. I'm thinking of making a livejournal account for my journal of readings. Then when mom woke up I did hers...she might be 'reuniting with a friend from the pst' so supposedly Ron is who is in the picture

ANyways then i did Stephanie who is Mindy's friend and all she could say was wow

...who?

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 14:00:37 GMT

I wanna listen to Roxanne which I'm 99.99repeating% sure that it is by The Police. Anyways today is easter and those kids keep waking me up adn I was like what the hell!?!?!? and completely scared Nicholas. Poor kid..i didn't mean to scare him. then Cridda's grandma gave us chocolate egg tuffles and dr.pop. She is soooo awesome. anywasy ima go now and hopefully grab the right drink...loll inside joke. I heart you big....Happy Easter.

A seven nation army couldn't hold me back.

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 16:16:47 GMT

Whell I'm still in Tennesee. I'm having more fun then yesterday though. Cridda is such a weird sleeper but I guess Im just as weird because I woke up fine just on opposite sides of teh bed...Hmmmph its liek dancing while sleeping...weird. Um I am in the process of learning how to read cards from this book that criddas grandma has...And shtuff...so far ive covered hearts...yeah.I was like lying on the floor and cridda sat on me so me being stronger I like got her on her back and she went to ask her grandma something and then I started biting the chair leg and she came in and hit my ass really hard so i turned and hit her arm and left an arm print. wesa so violent. Then I was like yelling at this one bird. I think it was a robin. I was all like " Here birdie birdie" and it started walking toward the window...and I was like " good birdie birdie" and it turned around so i was all like..."ill fart on you" and it walked like a foot so i was like " Ill fart on your head!!! Get back here." then cridda was like "'Jessica, what if someone walks by and heres "I'm going to fart on your head!'?" So i stopped. Then cridda had a drill without any drill bits and started like drilling my neck so i turned and hit her and she is like "accident! Accident"

Spring break is where i want to be...

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 23:25:38 GMT

In TN with cridda face cause she is pimp. Um eyah back on Thursday. Call the cell. If you don't get an answer then I might not want to talk...I don't know if I have roaming so only very few get answered. Love you all have a great break...<3<3<3

I'm so bored.

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 01:35:44 GMT

Whell today at track I worked extra hard and I'm like uber sore. Then after track we all went(we being Miles, Steve, Cridda, Me, Christina, Dylan, Eric, Vince and Joey<-they live their.) It was sooo much fun. His mom is really nice. We had like pizza. Anyways I was really hyper and so I kept like attacking the guys. Of course I had to take off my glasses and I ended up hurting Vince and Eric and MILES really bad. Sorry about any damage. Anyways. Next time I'll wear contacts....so I can see where I'm aiming...anyway yeah that is pretty much it. OH. Joey's hair is awesome...I don't know why.

Hmmph

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 02:41:05 GMT

So basically I knew it would happen. It upsets me because then she promised it wouldn't because she so call 'loved' him. Then she ripped his heart in two and left him. She claims she cares but I seriously doubt it. She can be such a heartless bitch. I hate it because she lied to me. Then he lied and now I'm having anger toward both of them and THEN i cant tell her because she'll just decide to tell me I never understand and that I'm controlling. Then when I ask how I'm controlling she will completely change the subject. Now this really pisses me. i confront her about him and get bitched out then her and my him gang up and verbally attack me because I have another him as a friend. Sometimes I think she is a hipocrit. But then I think that maybe Im just FUCKED up. Wait no. I am. No thinking. I know im FUCKED up.

In other news me and mom arent fighting anymore. For my birthday Michelle is taking me to the Panic!At the Disco/Dresden Dolls concert. I'm so escited. Hmmph. I wanna dye my hair black again. Maybe have my streaks blue. I dunno.
I just wish I had long beautiful hair down to my waist. I would be happy.

Whell Im off to bed.
Night.

Whell first off..

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 21:12:08 GMT

First off yesterday was thursday. We had a half day and we had confrences. After which I had an ortho appointment but then I went to the mall with Christa and Miles. On teh way to the mall we picked up miles and then we started clapping. I shoved my whole cell phone in my mouth and spit it at him. Loll. Then we criddas mom stopped at the bank and those they had those tube things and miles was all like "Whoa they have magical tube things over there!". Loll, then we got to the mall and I made fun of Aaron and told him it took him six months to grow his peach fuzz. Then we went to Steve and Barry's where we ended up yelling at the speaker to release the singer of Rise Against. Then we named a maniquin Webfoot. We then went to Aeropostle and made fun of the cologne. I then ran into charlotte russe to look at corsets. Then off to FYE. Cridda bought a DVD. Next we made our way to Hot Topic. They had a shirt that teaches you to be a ninja. Loll. Then we went to Fye again. In FYE Miles pointed out a golem(LOTR) statue that was holding a fish and said, " What's Jennifer Anniston doing with that fish?" I collapsed because I was laughing so hard. Then he laughed at me because I fell. Then we made our way into wet seal on out way to spencers. In wet seal I seen these sunglasses that are almost perfect. Then miles threw a sime at me and wanted to leave. So we went to Spencers where we seen a pimp rubics cube and these weird chicken things. Oh wow they had pepper flavored gum that tastes like pepper. Then me and miels started an underware battle. Loll. Then we went into pac sun. Then I ran into claires which they had like a whole rack of white sunglasses which is awesome. They were too big though. Then miles ended up spitting on the glass. and then he wiped it up with a hat. So i walked out to cridda and she tried reverse phycology and said "dont you dare come out here" so i said okay and walked back in. Then we moved onto walking to the food court and miles was all like "now I torture you and stepped onto the hollister platform and i was like oh yeah and walked through the whole store and he learned not to challenge me. then he noticed the handicap button and pressed it and walked through it. Loll. Then he said that I should go into yankee candle so i did and they ran to eb games. Some lady asked me where the 'sachet' sets were and i said i didnt work there and she turned and was all...'im so sorry thats really embarressing' then i went and met with them ...then miles bought a shirt from steve and barrys that said "green shirts ar for pimps" and his mom exchanged it for a shirt that said "wild thing" then we ate and they took us home. In teh car miles made a refrence to the turkey jokes and held out his hand and was all " i used to draw turkeys" then he put down his ring finger and said " that turkey is messed up" and he did this when i happened to be taking a drink of my pop and I couldn't breathe. Then I bit him. Then we dropped off cridda and we drove to my hosue and i got droppe off. Loll. Good day good day...Loll.

Bold and talentless

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 19:28:14 GMT

So today is the Talent Show(s) and It was fun. For the eighth grade I threw my bandana into the audience and turns out they took it out of pitty. v_v Oh whell I am still awesome
Tonight is the last show and will be by far the best show

Sunday Morning Cartoons...

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 20:18:05 GMT

Whell woke up and went to archery banquet. I got third place for fifteen meter. Came home and started going through baby pictures. Worked on autobiograpy and ate food. I know. Isn't it exciting? Whell I get to start the fifth book tomorrow. That movie was good but when i first seen Moody I couldn't stop laughing, ask christa....I was crying i was laughing so hard. Loll then um I like sorta got scared and pissed off because voldemort doesn't have an f-ing nose. What hell are they trying to pull? What kinda shit is that? anyways then christa gave me the bunny and I named him Maehue(May-hue.)
And she called him an asshole. That hurt his feelings and i cant talk him into going back to her house. He is insulted.
I have a weird obsession with the letter 'm'. I named criddas gargoyle Mark. Mine is Melvin, The bunny in Maehue and for some reason i find moody's name weird.

Blue Monday

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 01:59:40 GMT

English- im behind on autobiography
Science-took more notes
math- got a little bit caught up considering i missed friday
Lunch- Foudn out DJ is ack and gave him the note expressing my feelings on teh whole situation
Social studies- Made a spiffy post it note book mark
connections- movie posters
gym- practicly broke my ankle racing Alex
band- Started The Little Mermaid, sorta got my point across to steve.
track. stood by fence and talked to sami y. she is nice.
Criddas house- studied and ate food yo'
got home - worked on math and got bitched at by mo yet again for something i didnt do.
Now im gonna working on autobiography since im behind

Now see what shoudl i do is a common question. But it is never answered easy with no questions asked. See i could type to an Ask Daniel column but no because if i were to then i were to get to get to DUMBASS answers rather then one good one...example...(i wrote this)

Dear Daniel,
I have a problem, one of my guy friends, boyfriend and best friend arent getting along. How can be friends with all and still ;be happy?
Confused Friendships

Dear confused,
Hear is what to do either(notice the word means more then one) you can discard your guy friend in shopes of settling this battle or(that word means another dumbass idea) you can stay friends and jsut try to ignore the battle.

^^^NO!!! Now listen hear. One who would I be just to discard him i specifically said friends with alla dnd i cant just forget . this shit is stressful....what the hell. so who knows. where is 'Teh book of life suggestions of hard time and times of shit that happens everday'?

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 03:06:22 GMT

Whell first off, Harry Potter was there. Second next week is the last shooting thing/banquet. I got liek three chapters done in the book im reading and when i got home i found out steve caleld. But see my mom thought it was dave. Now why would he call me anyways i havent talked to him in a while and besides...Wtf..anyways so it was family time so i couldnt hang out with any friends. Now she is denying it was family time but still 'its good i stayed home'. Whatever. Anyway for dinner we were going to have fattenng KFC. Ew anyways they didnt have any chicken so we went to subways which is healthier....but when we pulled in they chut off the lights. Fineh. So then we figured okay churches so we go ands it isnt tehre anymore. then we went to chicken shack. They dont have mashed potatoes! WTF!?!?!?!?! Anywayas so i atre greasy chiken that deffintly makes me go eww tahts gross....so yeah. Track starts tomorrow. Cant wait. I have $282 saved for a car so far. I know it isnt alot and i know i have some time before i start driing but the way i look at it that time will help make my savings more....so ill be able to afford a car.
anyays thats abut all.

yeah so basically

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 15:42:08 GMT

I have to leave in an hour for archery which really sucks because i dont want to go. Anyways, maybe harry potter will acually be there this time. I keep telling my friends about him but he wasnt there when stephanie went and he wasnt there when cridda went. It makes me look bad. By the way his real name is nick. But whatever he still reminds me of harry potter. Except taller. and not so round glasses. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Whell I am really bored. Me and mother watched tv last night and ate pizza it was basically girls night.
Whell thats like all i have and kitty is meowing. he is gonna wake up mom.bye

R.I.P

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 21:56:31 GMT

Whell, Micheal Russo died Sunday night. Almost a week ago and I don't know which is worse that i drifted from him in seventh grade when we were friends or that we had just become friends again when he was taken.

Monday was full of tears and pain.
Tuesday there was an assembly and wednesday there was not much i can think of.
Thursday I went to visitation with christa.
Friday was the prayer and burieal. We went to prayer.

Saturday. NOt much what so ever. Waiting til like seven thirty to wake mom up and we are going to watch a movie. Just girls tonight. No brother yelling at me. No dad to argue about shoes. Just us girls. Mom and me. Possibly Michelle.
Now is it just me or is Molly Parker extremely pretty? I think so.

I have archery tomorrow.

How long how long will i slide?

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 16:00:54 GMT

Whell guess what kiddies. That is right....I made it into the pankow math and science center.

Also in other news Im cold. But anyway..Last night i had a dream that i married a squirrell and that his best man was a moose. I have got to stop eating before going to bed. anyway i have the cell...ciao.

Me hair

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 15:23:56 GMT

So yeah basically i got my hair cut yesterday. =D

IMPORTANTE!

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 22:28:55 GMT

IMPORTANTE! If you have plans with me and you know that your parents are way way way way way way...way too over protective and you know that your over protective parent(s) will probably say no then dont even botehr making plans. I hate it everythime i go to do something and they cancel at last minute when i had to eitehr ask for time off or beg my dad or who ever to give me a ride and you cancel. so please read this and unless your name is steve cause he gets special privledges(sp) then please cancel atleast three days in advance. thanks for your time.

Today's top story..

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 19:34:48 GMT

Today's weather is slightly sarcastic...

Hmmm well We are on break and Ill start on Saturday.

Saturday-Steven's dad's birthday party. He has a really nice family. And the Joey guy like completely killed me in Foosball but it was only the second time I have ever played. First time i acually won. Steve doesn't want me to get any crazy piercings...I dunno i have a few years to come to an agreement. And i met Nikki(sorry if i spelt that wrong). She is cool and completely random which is fun. Steve's mom is convinced i don't eat which isn't true and i met Karly(sorry for spelling errors). She is pretty cool. We talked about Higgins. I found out Mr.Gaghann(spelling) retired and Mr.Monroe is still the evil art teacher. Loll. Mr.Perry, Steve, Katlyn(sp), Nikki and Nikki's dad did the helium thing. I recorded as much as i could. We watched A bit of the original Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Steve got me to play pool which i did better than i thought i would. I might be forgeting something but I'll move on.Oh and when i got home I watched The Devine Secrets of the Yaya Sisterhood with Michelle.

Sunday-I believe I ate breakfast. Took a shower. I know that i went somewhere with my parents. Oh Gibralter. Yeah then i dropped off film at Meijer and then bought a red lightsaber for the talent show. Then i spent the night at Christa's house. We umm had fun? Yeah kinda fuzzy oh i believe we watched the newer version of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Then i fell asleep.

Monday-Supposedly i called my dad twice to ask to go bowling and in my phone it says i called twice but i only remember once and supposedly i told Christa that she smells like Martinis but i dont know what a martini is. And i do remember yelling at her to hand me my pants. But anyway no need to explain how violent i am when i am sleeping.=D. Anyway Steve, Eric(M, Christa and I went bowling and it was the sith(Steve and I) vs. the Jedi(Christa and Eric) and the first game the sith won but the second game the jedi used the force..like wow. Christa payed for food and Steve payed for bowling...i believe i payed him back? or doid eric pay him for me? anyway we all got dr.peppers after cause they are awesome. We played DDR and me and cridda got some tickets and got some penguin tattos and got eric a little monkey guy. there machine ate my tickets>_< and yeah i spent the night at cridda's house. We watched Trigger happy and like we seen this emo penguin adn now i want an emo penguin suit for metro beach. We watched most of Napolean Dynamite and stuff. Then she attacked me and took over teh computer cause ig ot bored then i watched some music videos and stuff and she like attacked me on the table. Then she gave Nicholas a bath and he was running around naked so i focused on the television and Jacob warned Nicholas not to show his 'parts' to me because I'm not his sister and nicholas was like "Yes She Is!" but lucky for me he wasnt runing in front of the T.V...then we ate chocolate and went to bed. Oh and i think I'm going to try out Because of you for the Talent show.

Tuesday. Walked home and then talked to steve, we played euchre, go fish, Tiki Tiki bomb(sp) and stuff and then i ate lunch. I babysat and they basically was told that im losing my job then i was told i wasnt. I dont want to have to walk farther to get payed low money. though i appriciate it. Then i came home and Eric was being a dick because i asked him if he bought me shaving cream like i asked. He said no and i asked why and he started bitching so i went to dads cause i was 1) invited and 2)was too stressed to deal with him. So yeah we had dinner and watched Nightmare Before christmas. then i went to bed.

Wednesday-Got up at 8:30 to watch vivian came home and got to sleep til 10:30 when she woke up and then mindy came home and we have been chillaxing ever since. Vivian had the hiccoughs. I laughed anyway more later. Bye.<3